Over the past few weeks I've been reflecting on 2014, and I must say it was an amazing year, I started my Youtube channel and blog, I went to Florida, had some unbelievable experiences, I got a weave and fell in love.
I feel within the past year I changed as a person, for the better, I have definitely grown from being unbelievably shy to genuinely having some self confidence which honestly is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Its opened so many doors for me, and allowed me to start my Youtube channel and blog, to actually put myself out there! Which if i think about too much is still slightly terrifying.. so lets not.
Although, as amazing as 2014 was, it certainly wasn't perfect and there are changes I want to make in 2015.
New year, new me? Definitely not..
Yet in 2015 I do want to make some changes, most of them surrounding my Youtube channel.
I feel as if in 2014 I restricted myself to what videos I made due to what everybody else was doing. I was in the completely wrong mind set, I was constantly thinking about what videos everybody else wants to see, basing this off my own subscription newsfeed which was so repetitive and if I'm completely honest its boring! For example every month its the same routine, of a favourites video, a haul, a get ready with me and then maybe another haul. So me being a newbie I went along with the hype and I wasn't genuinely enjoying it anymore. Like my Grandma once said to me when I was little-
"Don't be a sheep and follow the crowd, be a camel.. Camels are different"
I also feel quite strongly about this, as I personally feel myself as a viewer, that I have almost been persuaded into buying certain materialistic items, and when i reflect over the past year i feel, well i know, that I have wasted so much money on high end makeup after watching beauty videos, don't get me wrong i do love makeup but that Charlotte Tilbury eyeliner, that yes is gorgeous.. its definitley not life changing.
Originally, my channel was meant to be a fun positive place that i could focus on as a hobby, and i honestly love it! I just feel asif i'm stuck in this boring routine of trying to please other people when actually it got to a point where i wasn't even enjoying it anymore which defeats the whole object of my channel in the first place!
Amongst the cliche videos on my channel I have done two Vlogs, one in Florida and the other when me and my boyfriend Max climbed a mountain, and at the time i didn't think much off them but honestly they are my favourite videos on my channel, because i feel like they show who i actually am and they're more fun to watch.
Basically, I want my channel to be a creative place where I can store all my experiences and memories to look back on, and if i gain subscribers along the way then thats amazing and I am honestly grateful for every single subscriber i have.
Of course I am going to continue to make fashion videos, as fashion has always been my first love and passion, i just want to snap out of this vicious circle of making the same old videos and focus on whats important in life and use my channel and a positive place to talk about my passions and share with you all my experiences and to stay happy, positive and most importantly just to have fun because i feel like last year flew by so quickly and i just need to learn to live in the moment.
So hopefully this new year will bring lots of happiness and ill be sharing allot more of my personal life with everyone! Im sorry about this super rambely post! I hope your all well and i will definitely speak soon!
Love Nina oxox
